This weekend I spent a lot of time gardening. My husband graciously offered to watch baby so that I could spend some time outside. I had rather planned to let go of my garden this year because I felt I didn't have the time to invest in it, but each day last week I watched spring start to take hold and felt such longing to go out and be part of it. It sounds silly, but there is such joy in watching small flower buds begin to unfold. Feeling the sun on your face and the cool wind swirl around you lifts the spirits, even when they didn't need lifting to begin with.
A Weight Watchers leader once said during a meeting that if you want to be successful at weight loss, you have to find a good hobby and I think it's true. When I'm working my my garden I don't feel the hunger or the need to eat. My mind is absorbed in imagining how things will be and creating a beautiful space. I'm at peace. Until I got out there this weekend, I didn't realize how much I had missed having the freedom of movement to hoist that shovel, pull those weeds, and climb up in that planting box. My giant pregnancy belly and post pregnancy recovery kept me from doing most of those things in the last several months. Now I am unleashed.
I'm very thankful for my outdoor time this weekend. As much as I adore my baby, having some "me" time is wonderful too and I think it gives me strength to do better during the week, both in terms of food and being a good mommy. Wait a minute, you might say, this is supposed to be a weight loss blog, not a baby blog....I know, I know, I'm getting back to it, but the two are linked together. When I'm very tired, physically and mentally, I turn straight to food for comfort. That was really apparent the first month after birth. Everything was so overwhelming and exhausting that I had a direct line to my chocolate biscotti. Now that baby is older and I'm feeling a bit more experienced, I think I'm more ready to use other things like my garden and baby's darling smiles to uphold me. I find myself sore from head to foot today and it makes me smile because it was totally worth it. What a great way to start the day. :)