The next thing that really struck me occurred after the author lost the weight. She had surgery and lost a lot of weight without having to change her behaviors. She became very thin. At last her dream of beauty and social acceptance could come true, happiness and love only belonging to the thin after all. Was she happy? No. Losing the weight didn't change her lack of self love. Further, by losing the weight without changing her behavior or her mindset, she didn't deal with the underlying issues that caused her to gain the weight to begin with. Here's a quote from her essay:
" I lost a lot of things along with the weight. I lost my sense of self. My sense of proportion. My sense of dignity, of maturity, of control. I was skinny, but my life wasn't suddenly and magically perfect-and that completely astonished me. It sounds ridiculous, having really fallen for the fairy tale of weight loss. But I had fallen for it completely, and then was blinded by the egregious lack of a happily ever after."
I used to fantasize that if I could somehow magically just become thin, I'd be able to maintain it. I know now that is untrue. That's part of why I originally started this blog. Until I address my food issues and resolve or learn to control them, I'll never truly be successful. As much as I sometimes wonder if a weight loss surgery option wouldn't give faster results, I think this process of calorie counting, reflecting, and (hopefully) exercising is my path to living a freer, happier life. In other words, change that comes too easy isn't real change. I was feeling badly that I'm back to where I am with my weight and having to begin my blog from what feels like the beginning, but maybe it's all a journey. That's in the title of this blog after all. It's a journey, not just a destination, and if the journey takes a little longer...well, that's okay too.
http://shine.yahoo.com/healthy-living/losing-180-pounds-really-does-body-8212-160-163900419.html "What Losing 180 Pounds Really Does to Your Body-- & Your Mind"