Okay, I'm having trouble starting this entry because I'm a bit overwhelmed with everything I have consumed in the last week. It's been bad. I tried to control myself at camp and if I am going to find any successes this week, it's the knowledge that I did better at controlling myself there than I ever have in seven trips. However, that doesn't mean I did a good job either. On the worst camp food day, I went over by 1200 calories, putting me over 3,000 calories for the day. Whew! So obviously, eating at camp wasn't great and I expected that.
What I didn't expect was my reaction to being home. I ate everything under the sun on Friday night and Saturday. I know for certain that Friday night's binge was a bout of comforting and self-soothing. I ate and ate and I figured I would get back on track on Saturday. For the first time since I started using www.myfitnesspal.com, I didn't record my calories. On Saturday, things seemed to be going better, more normally, except that we spend a long afternoon in the backyard and when we came inside in the evening, I remembered that there was a very empty fridge. Tired and hungry, we went out to eat and I picked unhealthily, throwing my calories out the window again. After dinner, I snacked because I figured I was already lost for the day. And again, I didn't record my calories, maybe because I didn't want to really acknowledge just how far off the mark I truly was. I know from past experiences with Weight Watchers that not recording points/calories is the first big step off the path. It's so easy to miss a day, then two, then a week....such an inconvenience to record everything...and pretty soon I've lost all accountability.
Today we are going on a social outing with friends to an apple farm with the usual assortment of treats there. I plan to indulge with them, but I'm going to record everything. I had a healthy breakfast and I will cook dinner tonight because we went grocery shopping last night. It may not an overall healthy day and I may not stay in calories, but I'm going to do better than the last two days and I'm ready to get back on track with my goals.